I thought I could handle this.....

But I really can't....I am surrounded by memories and happier times that seem to be just out of my reach. When I let him into my life I let down my guard for just a moment and before I knew it I was so in love I couldn't see staight. Now that it's gone and over I find myself not being able to see straight all over again but for far differant reasons. I can't find my bearings, I don't want to get out of bed, and I don't want to face my life without him by my side. Call me weak, but I just don't know that I can do this. Of course I will get up everyday and breath and do the things that I need to do to survive but for now I feel as if my life is over. A human can handle so much loss in her life and I have had too much. Please Goddess enough is enough!