Do I dare....

Do I dare have Hope? Deshawn and I have spending a lot of time together. We have been talking about what we want, what our fears are, and where do we want to be. We both have expressed our love for each other, that is something that has never gone away. But Deshawn is scared that he will get hurt again and I am scared that I am going to hurt him. I have been working hard in therapy and in anger management to get a hold of my emotions and process all the pain of my life. I am finally getting to a place where I like myself again. A large part of me wants to share all of this new found self esteem with that man I so dearly love, but I don't want to get lost in him. One of the things Deshawn has said that he fell in love with was my strength and independence, and I fear I have lost a bit of that over the years. I don't want to be known as simply Deshawn's Wife, although that is a title I long to have again. So I am going to continue to work on just being Lynn, and dare to hope that some day I can also be Deshawn's wife as well.