updates and thoughts...

Most of the time I love this time of year. I enjoy the feeling that everyone is happy and thinking of others more than they are thinking of themselves. Christmas seems to bring out our humanity and our compassion, and I love that! The last several years have been tough for me, and I find this year I feel more sadness and stress than any thing else. I feel very disconnected from my family, Like I am an outsider looking in. I feel as if we have scattered to the four winds and just can't find our way back. My sisters are doing their own thing for the holidays, Dad and Sharon are getting ready to make some huge changes in their life, and everyone else seem so far away. Of course I miss Stephen terribly this time of year, Sean is spending the Holiday with his Dad, and Deshawn has plans to visist his folks, so it's just me....
Ah well I am sure it's just a little holiday depression creeping in....
The good news is that I am finally getting the medical attention that I need to figure out what is alling me and I also got all of the court drama taken care of so I can move on. There are some good things happenening in my life and I am truly grateful for all of them!