Sick of Being sick

I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired! It seems like every time I turn around I am sick! My sister Laura seems to think that all my health problems will go away if I lost weight and for the most part she is right. I know my knees and ankles will stop hurting, my back issues will improve and my heart issues will certainly be all but gone. However there are things I have been battling lately that don't have anything to do with my weight! Like food poisoning, and now the flu.I spoke to my doctor and she explained how stress can lower your immune system and mine is already compromised due to Lupus. I have become so stressed about my appearance that it is working against me instead of motivating me. She suggested that I try to relax and take baby steps when it comes to my weight. Set a goal like "today I will do 5 more minuets of cardio" or "I am going to drink nothing but water today." These are doable goals that don't focus on how much weight I have lost or how many calories I have burned. The hard thing here is that I am actually sick and she is worried that I am so conscience about getting to the gym that I am not taking care of myself. It just seems like a vicious circle to me. I go to the gym, work out, feel good, get sick, miss the gym, feel like crap...over and over again. I found out last Tuesday that I did not make the final cut for The biggest Loser, I knew my chance were very slim but I must admit I was sad. I am not going to stop trying though, and really the way I see it if I lose the weight on my own I won't need to go on the show. I just gotta get over this flu crap so I can get back in the gym.