So my niece had surgery today to fix her under bite. I was so scared sitting there in a hospital again. It brought back all the memories. One day I hope I am not terrified of hospitals. Greatfully Kaila is fine, just swollen. but it still was very hard for me.I keep thinking that one day all these feelings and fears will go away.I felt so guilty for leaving my sister and Kaila up there, and because of my guilt I offered to stay with Kaila tomorrow until she gets released. I guess I need to suck up and be there for her.