The final reality

Today I went out to Allen to visit Stephen's gravesite. I have not been out there since his headstone was placed. It was a surreal moment looking down at the gravesite and seeing His name there. I put some new flowers up and wiped the dirt off, because thats what I am suppossed to do right? It was hard to be there so I didn't stay for long. It just made Stephen's passing very real and very final. I know he will always be with me, in my heart and in my memories. I think I handled the whole thing quite well. I was glad to have Dina there with me. We also went up to Allen Skate park where some of his friends put a little memorial up at Stephen's favorite skate spot, I even ran into some of his skate buddies while I was there. It was nice to see them. With every passing day it gets a bit easier.