work out update

I have been working hard, sticking with my program. I don't really notice a change but other people are starting to notice that my clothes are looking a little too big, my energy level seems to be a little higher, and I seem to be a little bit happier. I see myself everyday and I guess I will always have that fat image of myself stuck in my head to some degree. But I am trying hard to say thank you when someone says "hey you are looking good!" It's not the easiest thing in the world to do for someone that has had such a poor self image for so long. With the new healthier Lynn there has to be some changes made in the way I think about myself. Part of that is dealing with the guilt I feel over Stepehen's death, and Sean's continuing legal problems. I am loved by a lot of people, and I know they see me as a good person, and a good Mom. I am trying to see that in myself. With every inch that dissappears, with every pound that goes away there has to be a healing within as well...otherwise whats the point? I am blessed to have a Husband that supports me in every way, and a family, both blood and friend, that has been there for me no matter what the price.