Lately I have been feeling a little out of sorts. I was compared to a fire recently by a very wise man...when controlled can beautiful, warming and helpful. When out of control can be devastating, harmful and raging....hmmm that pretty much sums it up doesn't it. I have been working very hard the last several months on changing my perspective and better controlling ALL my emotions. I feel like I have been making positive progress, and then someone pushes my buttons and I feel myself falling into old behavior and stinkin' thinkin'. I don't like feeling out of control but I also don't like feeling like I have to always have such a tight grip or I will fall apart. There has to be a happy middle where I feel comfortable. It amazes me sometimes how quick it is to loose sight of things you have learned. I know what my triggers are, I know how to calm myself down, but if I am tired or stressed in any way all of those tools are forgotten.I know I am a strong woman, and I know I can do this, I just wish at times it was easier.